Opening thoughts.
Being behind the Barn.
What does that mean anyway?
It denotes a time of discipline, a time of learning. I guess.
God is good. He loves me enough to train me in His ways. And to do that, I guess He needs my attention.
He's got it now.
I'm working through some tough times at this moment. Financial difficulties, and marital separation. And the hardest being that I'm separated from the most wonderful people in my life. I have gone through anger, bitterness and pain, I have been drawn closer to Christ in it, and yet I still feel pain.
Pain is part of being "behind the barn". I do love my family very much, I am working through a grieving process as well. Sometimes I wonder how long will this last, and then I wonder if it's forever. I do hope, I do pray, that things will move forward in this, in His time, in His way.
Jumbled enough for ya? It is for me. I used to be comfortable in this kind of mess, but I don't want it anymore. I want God, I want His presence. Beyond blessing, beyond comfort, I just want Him. Does that make sense?
This page will hopefully be an outlet for me to think, to vent and to become more free in Christ. I want that freedom with a desperation that I have never really known before.
So if you read these, pray. That's all, just pray.
God bless those that seek His face. Please.
