And the Pain Goes On!!!!!
Well, here it goes.
Went and saw ROTK......I lauged, I cried, it moved me Bob! I actually left saddened. Was it because it was over? Was it because it affected my heart? Time will tell. But a lot of the story really spoke of things I desire in my life. Mercy, Grace, Loyalty, and a ragin' sense of honor.
And then the crushing blow. I talked to my wife and daughter again on the phone. I haven't seen them for six months now. And she still will not talk to me about us.
I feel wreaked. My hope is failing. Will Frodo destroy the ring? Then for Frodo!!!!
I long so much to be whole. To be complete in Christ. Yet I find I am less than I was when I began. I am seeking counselling now. As I fear I am unable to come to terms with myself.
Who am I anyway?
If you read this, pray for me. Pray for Christ to live fully in me, for I fear I am dying within. That soon I will be just the empty shell I feel I am becoming.
I want so much to be with my family. I want so much to be complete in Christ. I I I.
As I watch my life fall apart, I'm left wondering, God are you still for me?
Yet I will bless the Lord, with every breath that aches for release, I will praize His Holy Name!!!!! Through the veil of tears I cry even now. Lord, You must be glorified.
Keep praying for me.
Peace Out.
