Carpe Diam?!
There was a time in my life when "Carpe Diam" meant something.
If you don't know the term, it basically means "seize the day".
At some point, I lost that. I'm not sure how, or when, but I did. Now, I seize nothing. No matter how much I want to, I am afraid to. Why?
The things in this life that trouble me most I created. My circumstance is my own. The effects of losing my passion is a lot of pain. For those I have cared the most about, and for myself. I can't blame anyone, not even God. It is I and I alone who must stand accountable. To God, and to my children, and to my wife, and ex-wife. Those friends who have stood by me, when I least deserved it, and those I walked away from, including Christ.
Thank God for His mercy. Thank you Father for Your grace. You are sufficient for me. You know my pain and my sin. You know my thoughts before I do. Father forgive me for all I have created. I ask humbly now that You would step in. I have never deserved Your love. I don't think that's what You intended either. But I am increasingly greatful for the steadfast love You have shown me.
I surrender all, to You. Heavenly Father, my failings and my joys. My despair and my hope, I give it all to You. In this the darkest moments of my life, I surrender.
You are my beginning and my end. You are the only constant hope. Dear Jesus, please forgive me.
Baptize me in Your Grace and Mercy. Thank You for Your ever present Wisdom. Help me to really listen to You and those I love.
Amen.
Isaiah 43:1-13
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The LORD Has Rescued His People
Descendants of Jacob, I, the LORD, created you and formed your nation. Israel, don't be afraid. I have rescued you. I have called you by name; now you belong to me. When you cross deep rivers, I will be with you, and you won't drown. When you walk through fire, you won't be burned or scorched by the flames. I am the LORD, your God, the Holy One of Israel, the God who saves you.
I gave up Egypt, Ethiopia, and the region of Seba in exchange for you. To me, you are very dear, and I love you. That's why I gave up nations and people to rescue you. Don't be afraid! I am with you. From both east and west I will bring you together. I will say to the north and to the south, "Free my sons and daughters! Let them return from distant lands. They are my people-- I created each of them to bring honor to me."
The LORD Alone Is God
The LORD said:
Bring my people together. They have eyes and ears, but they can't see or hear. Tell everyone of every nation to gather around. None of them can honestly say, "We told you so!" If someone heard them say this, then tell us about it now. My people, you are my witnesses and my chosen servant. I want you to know me, to trust me, and understand that I alone am God. I have always been God; there can be no others. I alone am the LORD; only I can rescue you. I promised to save you, and I kept my promise. You are my witnesses that no other god did this.
I, the LORD, have spoken. I am God now and forever. No one can snatch you from me or stand in my way.
