How I think. Think think think think

I went to counselling today. It was too short. We started going over how I think about life and the fact that I have a "victim" mentality. That when things go bad, it's because it's happening to me, just to get me. I should think, life happens what can I learn from this.

Now that may be true, I will have to think somemore on that. Not power of positive thinking, but just how I choose to react to things that happen. Whether it's work related or trials that come. How do I react based on that kind of thinking.

I think about my marriage alot. How much I miss my family and how much I know my wife doesn't want me back. That's hard to think about yet it's all I really dwell on. God there has to be something I can do about this. Or if there isn't, please take the pain and frustration away. I want to be free, to be who God made me to be. I do not want to be locked into sadness, because the woman I really feel that I love doesn't return it.

Help me hang on to Your purpose Lord. I will surrender it all and pray You can find a way to make me see the Truth in this.

God bless, Peace Out.  ¶ 1:04 p.m.