My Bones Melt within me. Where Are You??

God, I feel my chest cave. I wonder where you are. Those things I hurt for the most I can't change.
I know my heart cries for deep relationship with you, I've woken myself up singing your priaze in my sleep. Yet Where Are You?
My Spirit melts within, I wonder where you are.

Right here, weeping beside me.
Thank you Father for Your compassion. Thank You Jesus for your love.

Help me to step outside of my heart into Your life.

My wife says she has no feelings for me and is done waiting.....because I haven't changed.
It's been six months. At three months she said I was upset cause things weren't happening fast enough for me.....kettle/pot...both black.

Lord hear my heart today. I just want to die........Your way, not mine.

I want to be different today, I'm not. I want passion, I have emptiness. Peace, I have emptiness, Joy breeds despair.
I am so tired of this, and I don't know how to Change.
Father, Where ARe You!!!!!?????!!!

Peace Out.  ¶ 5:03 p.m.