Today is today. Hello there dilligent readers.

I struggle daily with my feelings. I don't want them to control, but they have an enormous affect on my well being.

today I feel worn out. Empty. I try to hang on to the hem of His garment, but I feel my fingers slipping. Tomorrow I have an appointment at a Christian Counselling center. Hopefully the weather holds and I can still make it. Prayerfully, I hope it is worth going.

I want so much to be someone different. Not someone else, but me, whole and complete in Christ, yet I struggle with the image of what that should look like.

I believe God has shown me to stay faithful to my wife, even though she has stated she has no feelings for me. She has "cut" me off for all intents and purposes. I still care deeply about what happens to her, and pray she is following Christ completely. She is a wonderful lady, and I know I've hurt her deeply over the last 10 years, and I don't deserve any consideration from her part, yet I pray daily God would soften her heart.

Am I crazy??
Sometimes.

Well people. I love you who I know, and I know I can love those I don't. Keep praying for His mercy to flow. The journey isn't half finished.

God bless, Peace Out.  ¶ 2:06 p.m.