Hello everyone. Hey.

I'm in this weird place right now.....out of touch with myself...kinda...well...dead inside.

I haven't been able to articulate how I feel, can't seem to feel anyway...I am beginning to think I'm giving up on my life.

I've tried to talk to some friends, but I can't seem to get out of the dark...I'm walking blindly, and I hate it.

My prayers are empty, my spirit is weak, and I can't break the bindings that keep me here.

Father where are you? Where did you go? What can I do to open up, to grow, to give it all?

I just want to bury myself, to not feel this death in me...
Abba, where are you? I need you!

I have not felt this way before, it's like I'm dead but just havn't quite realized it...

My body is wasting away too...no matter how much I eat, the bones in my joints become more pronounced, and I feel weaker with each passing week.

Father, where are you??? What is my sin? Whatis it that I need to do to make this better....

Daddy, I miss you.....

Here I sit, alone, broken.....a very successful failure...
Broken
Alone...

My God, My God, why have you abandoned me???!!!!???  ¶ 10:15 p.m.