Hello It's me again.

It's that time of year... TV full of fake and twisted ideas of what Peace on Earth should be, canned music everywhere... and the push to buy bigger and better for our "loved ones" in the hopes they buy bigger and better for us....

I don't like Christmas at the best of times.....

It's the 3rd Christmas I won't see Tessa and the second I won't see Lorien... (they're my daughters if you weren't aware)...
They were the big reasons for enjoying this holiday time.. to see their smiles, their eyes sparkling with anticipation.. to hear them laugh, to feel the hugs...
Yeah I miss my girls..

What's cute, I have a friend I talk to alot about these things, and she decided to help me this year, so she bought a gingerbread house to build together, cause it's a memory I have with Lorien... And she got me a chocolate laden Advent Calender.... and a Dutch Chocolate R.. for my name.. (she's Dutch, like me...LOL)

And when I said no Christmas presents.. she found me a little Hannukah gift instead... (loop holes withing Loop holes... ;-) ) She found a small "disco" ball.. for the Festival of Lights....

Yes, my friends are goofy.. LOL

Anyway.. here's to building new memories.. LOL
  ¶ 8:59 p.m.