Scattered thoughts.
Like I have any others.
Why do sad songs have such a draw for me? The last post really did hit me hard.
I know God is with me, but am I really with Him? It's that thought that eats at me most.
Am I where He wants me to be, doing the job I'm doing, is it what I'm supposed to do?
Father, you are supposed to be my all and all, why do I feel like I have nothing?
Sweet Lord, please answer my heart's cry for You. Please meet me where I'm at, cause I can't seem to get to you.
Peace Out.
It's Monday, and it's my birthday....
Wheee!
Here's something I heard today for the first time. It fits my current mood well.
Broken :: Seether Feat. Amy Lee
I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away
You've gone away, you don't feel me anymore
The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone
You've gone away, you don't feel me anymore.
It just seems to fit somehow.
A long, lonely time.
Gosh I miss you people!
I'm using a friend's computer as I still don't have internet at home. Couple of things.
1)pray the truck I will use for moving gets fixed soon, it's delaying my ability to earn money...God is my provider, so I'm not worried as much as I am chompin' at the bit to get going.
2)2 elderly Catholic ladies in about as many weeks have blessed me, and prayed for me. Today an old Italian grandma needed a buck to buy her perscription, I had a "Loonie" so I gave it to her. She prayed a Latin benediction and blessing over me before she left....and you know what.. I almost cried.
3) I am still praying and struggling through depression and my relationship with my wife. It's my birthday this month, our wedding anniversary next month and the anniversary of her leaving the following....yeah.. It ain't going to be easy.
Once again, I miss you all, and I get my internet at home on this Friday, so we'll see what's up.
God bless, Peace Out.!!!
