What in God's Name?
Confusion, misinterpretation, more confusion.
Hi.
These last few months have been odd for me. Up then down.. left then right.
I can't seem to keep it straight.
I'll update ya, if'n ya haven't been around much.
Officially divorced for about 5 months after a 18 month separation.. Ex got pregnant.. she's due like any minute now if she hasn't given birth yet.
Tried dating a girl I really do like... Just not meant to be.. She's still an awesome friend, don't ever want to lose that, but it really wasn't a good time for either of us.
Was given some awesome gifts for my B-day...(that my ex forgot for the second year in a row...OUCH).. Really enjoy my fencing too...(two of my gifts were a simulater Rapier and Dagger set for fencing....;-)
Now.. I've been at the same job for about 6 months or so, and I like it... need some more challenges though.. gotta push my boss for more training.. *grin*
Anyhow the crunch.
I'm really grasping at my faith... it's there, it isn't, I think about it, I don't. I miss having that charge, that intense testing of faith I used to get hangin out with the ol'house church.... I mean really miss it.. maybe it is the (and here we go with that inflaming word again) accountability I miss.. that checkin in with my bros and sis' about where I'm at and how I feel...
I've got no ambition, or motiviation to do anything or go anywhere... I mean, I'm thinking about joining a gym.. or something.. just to get out of the house when I'm not working.. Something...
I don't even know how to express what I'm feeling right now.
Maybe I'll right again later... who knows..
Thanks for catchin up with me.
L8R.. Peace Out... God bless.
