What in God's Name?
Confusion, misinterpretation, more confusion.
Hi.
These last few months have been odd for me. Up then down.. left then right.
I can't seem to keep it straight.
I'll update ya, if'n ya haven't been around much.
Officially divorced for about 5 months after a 18 month separation.. Ex got pregnant.. she's due like any minute now if she hasn't given birth yet.
Tried dating a girl I really do like... Just not meant to be.. She's still an awesome friend, don't ever want to lose that, but it really wasn't a good time for either of us.
Was given some awesome gifts for my B-day...(that my ex forgot for the second year in a row...OUCH).. Really enjoy my fencing too...(two of my gifts were a simulater Rapier and Dagger set for fencing....;-)
Now.. I've been at the same job for about 6 months or so, and I like it... need some more challenges though.. gotta push my boss for more training.. *grin*
Anyhow the crunch.
I'm really grasping at my faith... it's there, it isn't, I think about it, I don't. I miss having that charge, that intense testing of faith I used to get hangin out with the ol'house church.... I mean really miss it.. maybe it is the (and here we go with that inflaming word again) accountability I miss.. that checkin in with my bros and sis' about where I'm at and how I feel...
I've got no ambition, or motiviation to do anything or go anywhere... I mean, I'm thinking about joining a gym.. or something.. just to get out of the house when I'm not working.. Something...
I don't even know how to express what I'm feeling right now.
Maybe I'll right again later... who knows..
Thanks for catchin up with me.
L8R.. Peace Out... God bless.
My life is cyclic.
I think I'm getting dizzy.
Hello faithful reader.............'s (snicker).. It's been 30 days since my last confession....
Seems I've gone from happy to sad to happy to morose to bitchy to happy to........... you get the idea.
Right now, I'm in a "funk" and not the get down and shake your bootie kinda funk, but in the I need to back off and think kinda funk.. In case you weren't aware of the different kinds.
Not sure as to why I feel this way.. could be lack of activity, could be a bad case of "I feel sorry for myself" again... or lack of social interaction... I'm not cut out for the hermitic lifestyle.. As much respect as I have for those who can be alone for long periods of time.. I don't deal well.. start to go a bit crazy.
But.. like I said.. my life is cyclic... so something's gotta happen to change things...... right? Is it possible?
Only God knows.
Peace Out..
